How Deep Is My Love
by Candice Y. Johnson
I was deeply in love
With me
…until someone pointed out
The color of my skin
Positioned my melanin as a weapon
Killing me softly
Deeply within
The real home wreckers
Are the ones who refuse
To acknowledge
Or pretend they don’t see
The color of my skin
Or the true dwelling within me
My skin isn’t a weapon
It’s my divine protection
And now that I can see the glorious, sanctified view
Past the hurtful words
The passive aggressive lines are no longer blurred
I trust every part of me:
Reconstructed
Restored
Rejuvenated
…loving me once more
Can’t nobody love me
Like I do
Soft, yet strong
Intelligent
Bold
A brilliant, bright, melodic song
Tempting inspiration with a little bit of destiny
I’ve got no more tears to shed
Or folks who want me spiritually dead
I’m taking the lead
Gaining my own trust
I’m everything they said I’m not
…and more
Get ready, baby –
This real love’s about to soar
Kiss, kiss
I never miss
And I’d be completely remiss
To disqualify myself from tables
Where I’m purposed to be the head,
I’m loving me enough to eat of God’s very best feasts
No negativity
Or ashy testimonies
Perpetrated to defeat me
I love me enough
To be foolish enough to say NO
When I can’t take anymore
And posture myself to receive
All that God has in store for me
How deep is my love?
Imagine the one person
Who opens the window of Heaven
Every time you’re in close proximity
Your heart beats a song,
Only for them
They make you reach a level of euphoria
That only you can stand
You never want them far away
Thinking about what they want to eat
What will quench their thirst
Not afraid to cater to them
Putting their every need first
Yeah,
That’s where I’m at.
Consumed by me
Trusting
Believing
Reaching
Far beyond what my heart reveals
I’m so in love with me
…I just gave myself chills